tripped.fall.BOOM.tersungkur

read the title with a lil bit imagination.. haha.. try to imagine me, tripped.fall.BOOM!.tersungkur

I am supposed to start study by now but i'll feel uneasy if i dun expel what i feel. I just need to write, i mean type. SangatmalasuntuktulisDIARYsekarang. Just now, i celebrated fatinani's bday in Sunway Pyramid with her rooomates. Meeting new people again :) And, as usual, I'm the driver. haha. Fatin, Aku harap kau tabah hari ni. Sama-sama kita harungi :) Sayang, aku sayang kau. *hughughug*

People change from time to time. 

Let's figure out expressionism in me rather than impressionism in me. (i use music terms) From outside, do i look tough? answer me! but the real thing is i'm not THAT tough. This post, i'll be a bit emo cuz i'm hurt. haha. (boleh kata semua post aku emo) KAN? maybe that's me. Aku cepat emo weyh, aku cepat sakit. pheww! A big Failure in LOVE & STUDY.. might be for the study. Honestly, aku cepat sakit bab-bab love ni. Aku memang pelik macam mane orang boleh couple,breakup,couple,breakup.. banyak kali #adindaevans. Sekarang ni, KEGAGALAN jatuh menghimpit aku. Ye, aku nak bangun. Tapi bila aku nak bangun je, there's something obstructing me.

shit. y does time left me so fast! tickingticking. i need to study now!

Aku bila rasa down ni, mula la nak emo. Makan tak berselera. Bukak Tumblr. Bukak crew terfaktab emoemoemo. Anyway, their latest post really HITS ME. (go click terfaktab & baca) hit me baby one more time *ambik tangan pukul kepala tarik rambut* ARGHHH!!!! Sumpah aku terasa! okay, chill syasya.chill. -.-"

Alkisah nye begini. Dulu, senantiasa msg and sangatlah caring. Even alkisahku dahulu kala pun dia tahu & sangat memahamila. Memang cairla aku dibuatnya. Namun semuanya berubah secara tiba-tiba & aku terpinga-pinga.  Skrg mcm nak avoidkan diri dari aku. Bile aku tanye die, die kate takde la. But before that,  our wordings pun da start berbeza. Mengalahkn orang yang dah berkasih tuh. haha. ok..NOT! Aku confused. seriously aku tak tau nk buat ape. sudut hati aku, aku sakit. Yes, SAKIT. Kalau kau nak pergi, ckp la. Be direct please. You did said u understand me and u r different from the others. Then, PROVE IT!

Aku pikir, aku mmg nk avoid kan dirilah dengan ni sume. Kenapalah aku tersungkur lagi sekali. This feeling is not easy to deal with. I'm weak. yes

LONELINESS IS NOT AN EXCUSE TO FALL IN LOVE. 

LOVE WHEN YOU ARE READY NOT WHEN YOU ARE LONELY.

pahamkan ayat di atas. Maybe ni temporary feelings antara aku dan dia. Tapi..aku?? hmm.. aku macam bukan temporary. Ntahla. Aku just hope dia tak menipu dan menjadi JERK. But now, memang aku rasa semua species ADAM ni, mcm jerk. erk! sorry to say. maybe aku jahat untuk cakap mcm tuh. haih.. Takpelah. Sabar je & redha. Sakit memang sakit. tapi apakan daya??
 


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