Di keheningan malam...angin sepoi-sepoi

current place: University of Nottingham (Semenyih ok? bkn LONDON)
i like this place..nyaman sangat!

yang akan baca ni maybe akan rase cerita dek lapuk zaman cuz aku cadang nak buat cerita ni berperingkat2 melalui draft sahaja. Haha! Lagipun my Finals are nex week and i should be studying now. I just can't resist the urge to type. ahah! tech can bring more stress actually.

So, where should i begin.. *mesty kau nak emo2 lagi kan?* Ala, itu current mood aku for more than a year. Nak buat macam mane kn? tak larat nak baca? *shuhhh!!*

[sangat suke internet kat nottingham ni..LAJU!]

my current DP.. I look short and yes i am =.='

After more than a year menjadi single, ade je ramai yang approach aku. haha.. *perasan HOT la tuh!* tuih! tak ok? kenyataan.. lol.. ok2.. i dun want to brag myself.. forgive me please :) Aku sedar aku sape and macam mane.. tak sesempurna mana dari segi akal mahupun fizikal. Mesty ramai tertanya-tanya, knpkah aku dah tak pakai spec mata bingkai hitam yang tebalnakmampos macam nerd. Ahah!! Ini semua angkara lebam bawah mata tuh.Nampak?! makin tebal... sob2.. i do get enough of sleeps. Am i? I wore specs for 13 years already and i'm now 18.. Do ur calculation from what age i wear specky2. Try to guess my first power of specs..fuyooo..ade power! haha.. bukan ultraman mahupun batman.. 700! and that was when i was FIVE! Memang orang panggil aku ni buta..

That's my reason for not wearing specs now..Anyway, the most comfort thing I could say is wearing specs...I am serious. *boleh cover jerawat* hee.. Tapi with contact lens boleh la aku bergaya dengan shade rm25 tuh.. :) Kalau pakai specs macam mne kan?

pause...aku ada chance nak jadi model tak? ahah! *pfftt..pendek! berangan je kau ye*

Okay, sambung cerita...

Fatinnani! my gaylesbianbestfriendroommatedormmateclassmatebedmatepillowmate. Phewwiitt..
gile la aku ni! *ignore please*

Nurfatin Hanani binti Kamaruddin

Fatin Syahiera binti Baharuddin

tengok tuh! nama pun ala-ala sama kan?

Selepas kau harungi masammanis loveboat kau tuh.. kau da berjaya keluar dan sampai dengan selamatnya! And now you are free from that! I know that u are a strong girl who stay faithfully within the period and tak di-appreciate langsung kan? bila tiba org tu nak appreciate..ko da penat,fedup.. it's too late? am I rite? well, each person has it's own boilingmelting point.. setuju? Tadi, we had dinner together with the 'satellite'. Sedey plak si Aaron Aziz tak ikot.. tak pe la.. Trying to avoid me? aku redha.. :) nak buat mcm mane...

Saya: Bersedia untuk di interview? jengjengjeng

Satellite: hahahahaha...nak tanye ape?

Saya: U ni asyik gelak je la! ish..betol2 ni!

Satellite: okay2..tanye cepat         

Fatin: Jom balik da bayar ni! (bangun untuk mengelak)

Saya: Ish! fatin! kau duduk! aku serious ni... so mr, bila nak termeterai segalanya ni? (trying my best untuk berlapis)

Satellite: macam da hampir termeterai, cuma nak cari tarikh yang sesuai aje.. haha

Saya: amacam kalu 11.11.11? cantik! taaaaapi.....lambat lagi la!!!

satellite: hahahahah!!!!!

Saya: (dalam hati) ah kau! asyik gelak je...kasi swing kang!!! 

So, i hope...korang ok la ye?? SETIA tau! haha.. jangan nak mengade nampak yang lagi hensem/cantik.. terus bertukar..ish3.. kalau mcm tuh..sampai mati pun dok macam tuh...

hhhhhhhhmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm..................................(knp pjg sgt hmm aku ni?)

Apelah nasib aku ni kan? Namun aku tetap bersyukur dengan segala nikmat yang diberi-Nya. Sambung cerita yang paling atas tuh... About me being approached by people.. ahah! ade je....bukan tak de.. tapi ntahlah...hati tak terbukak untuk anyone after the really heartbroken thingy...dat breakup was seriously SUCKS. It took me a loooooooong time to recover....however,,suddenly, there's a guy who open up my heart and mind thinking not all boys are same... but within 2 months, things change back to the previous thing... They are all JERKS

"I'm trying not to love you. I'm trying not to care. I'm trying not to live my life wishing you were here. But i just can't do it..

I've been telling people, i'm not easy to like someone or to fall in love...i'll try my best to avoid that deep cliff.. because i noe the pain that i could not resist again. I'm not fully recovered yet and i'm still scared of my past. Then, I put trust in this person, and i start to fall for him. Unfortunately, day by day...he's like trying to avoid me & at the same time he's giving me hope. I'm just confuse! GOD! help me.. perlukah aku menghadapi teka-teki ni? Tadi, aku ada bukak profile someone ni..bahagia je aku tengok..sumpah envy! LOL... BAGUSLAH.....kau da temui kebahagiaan kau.. senang je kan? :)

Adakah aku dipermainkan lagi???????