nama yang hanya tinggal nama

harimau mati meninggalkan belang,
manusia mati meninggalkan nama..

wah..ber peribahasa! pernah dengar kan pepatah tuh.. yeah.. part of my story is nak cakap.. there's a name yang hanya tinggal nama.. dah jadi macam MEANINGLESS. There's once in my life.. this name is verrrrry meaningful in my life. Almost everything including doodles, passwords, username or apa2 yang memerlukan username, I'll use this name.. kepada rakan2 ku? boleh teka tak? haha.. walaupun tak gune name ni sekarang, tapi ade la ala-ala, but in terms of cartoon / kanak-kanak.. haha! xpaham? ok .. takpe. Till now, still ade certain-certain sign up thingy i use this name.. but as i said before, the name is just a name.. no more meaning for me.. useless da..
to be true, yea..maybe korang da boleh agak, the name is :

SYAZSYARAF

Ade yang familiar kan? haha.. yeah..that's just my past. past is past.. I'll not turn back to my past..i guarantee that. Maybe just a glance to make sure mistakes will not be repeated in future.

It's easy to say, 'I love you,' to someone, but it's more meaningful to thank someone for loving you.

I think it's not to late to say thanks to someone for loving me and care for me for 2 years ( 1 year is not counted ) But still, i couldn't forgive you just easily like that. The scars & pain that i've been through all this while, will remain forever. The depth is just infinity. The time flew so fast and macam tak percaya je i've been single for like 1 year ++. wee~! I prefer like this, and i admit sometimes lonely la jugak. Masih terasa, dulu ade orang cakap goodnyte, call to wish good morning. haha..kinda lame rite? dah dah.. itu semua da lepas.. no more already.. da macam tak heran da tu semua..rase macam annoying plak.. tak sangke macam mane la dulu boleh 24 jam tangan tu kat phone.. *tepuk dahi*  Bile fikir balik, macam tears > smile.*raise eyebrow*You have your beloved friends now, yang sangat supportive. kalau nak nyatakan...sangat ramai! college friends & school friends. A gazillion thanks to u peeps!

I dunno why but currently, i don't really trust guys.. especially Malay guys.. bukan nak jadi racist ye.. just.. some people yang i kenal ni, macam buat sakit hati je. Kadang2, regret to noe them.. kalau tak kenal lagi bagus..bukan dapat ape2 pun kenal.. haha. I'm not saying all.. but CERTAIN ONLY. sweet talker, annoying,  menjengkelkan.. korang memang cam tuh eh? any objection from guys?! 

5 more days, it's yify's bday. my teddy! haha.. teddy pun ade birthday..macam lahir kat hospital je kan? da lembik betul die :)

p/s: to certain people yang baca, sorry la kalau ungkit kisah lama.. this is my personal blog.. don't like it? just ignore me & tak payah la teruskan baca..just go away..  i won't harm you. lol.. And yeah, sorry malam2 ni jiwang sikit..tetibe je kan? SO RANDOM.