am i not smart? or not smart enough?

mata: Aku tak boleh tidur

akal: Dah pukul 2.30am ni.. kene tidur

tangan: aku suke menaip cuma sekarang nothing to say

hidung: aku nak bernafas..asyek tersumbat je (24 /7 sudah)

perut: I'm hungry! AglioOlio please!!

dead meat sizzling here.. HERE COME MY RANDOMNESS... stop2. nak cakap pasal scholarships interviews yang dpt hari tuh.. what are the feedbacks and the result.. sedih la nak citer sbnrnye..tapi xpela.. :)

1. JPA Program Luar Negara
2. Khazanah global
3. Petronas - dalam negara UTP
4. Inti Leadership Scholarship 

Mengapakah aku cancel/pangkah semua tuh? i bet u noe.. yeah.. aku xdapat semuanya.. kind of... :( JPA. I received an offer but it stated PIDN which means program dalam negara & memandangkan i forgot to register 2nd phase for UPU, what they stated is, my name is not in the system.. haha =.=' bazir duit je dulu byr rm14 untuk beli no.pin. Meanwhile, i get an offer to further my studies in matriks Pahang. emm.. so, if i accept JPA offer, means that i'll be continuing my studies in Pahang. :) 


Hmm... i feel really sad and frustrated cuz i get none. Yeah, assuming. All my efforts to go for the interviews, satu pun tak jadi. JPA, memang i menyerah awal2 cuz i did quite bad during the interview. But for petronas, I've tried my best :( Khazanah? memang i sedar, i xla genius.. there's more people who deserve it. i called my friend yang dapat pegi 2nd stage : congrats Danial! geezz... He said, during 2nd stage there's only 50 people and now, he's waiting for the 3rd stage call.. & guess what?! for the 3rd stage, ONLY 7 PEOPLE!! gile la!! 200 ppl -> 50 ppl ->7 person -> 4th stage -> SCHOLAR! [memang maut la pemilihan die.. sape dpt memang pergh!!!]


looks like i just continue my study in inti while waiting for leadership scholarship result to be out. Jealous sangat bila dengar ade orang dapat ke US, AUSSIE, UK & they all under scholarship. hmm.. Am i too dumb to get an offer? tak layak kah? mak aih.. or i'm not lucky enough.. conclusion, untuk sedapkan hati, tak ada rezeki :( mungkin, masa depan nanti, ade peluang yang lebih baik. Allah da sediakan plan bagus untuk saya, in future. Insyaallah. Fikirlah. [baru dapat tau ade sorang kawan dpt scholarship under PNB] congrats to u izham.. Bestnye korang dapat scholarship!!!! dear god, hope u have something for me in future.. seriously, i'm sad.. :( Papepun, bersyukurla, ur parents mampu untuk biaya u in inti & in States.. :) takpelah, anggap penat lelah dulu tuh, pengalaman. At least u meet new people and friends :) EXPERIENCES ARE PRECIOUS...

taken from my friends:

ala fasya, kau jangan sedih2. Kau kene bersyukur kau boleh masuk private.. bukan semua boleh. Kau jangan ingat yang kau bodoh sebab tak dapat scholarship. Maybe kau layak, tapi sebab tengok ade org yang tak berkemampuan lagi layak, tu yang dia amek orang lain (siot je) haha..  And maybe, Allah nak tunjukkan, betul la jalan yang kau ambik sekarang that's inti & american degree program. Ko pun ada kata if dalam negara kau tak nak amek. So, drpd petronas kasi kau yang maybe kau tak nak accept...baik die kasi orang lain. Kang rugi satu tempat... Allah maha adil & mengetahui..

okay..i'll take that & bersabar.. mane la tau..there's something for me in future.. come on, be optimistic :)
Still, aku masih bersedey...