When love fall to pieces

the title kinda dramatic.. isn't it? I don't know where should i start. after reading the NST - Weekends, this Header attract me.. noe y? cuz it is happening to me..

have you EVER in love with someone?       are you IN LOVE now?           HARDEST part in love?    
             just BREAK UP with someone?                  has been YEARS NOT in a relationship?    
                                                      LAST time feel apart over a man?    blablabla...

me? erk.. okay, once, i fell into pieces. LIKE HELL! most of the time, in the room, lying on the bed. PATHETIC! i really hope that i could vanish my memories in a minute.. and wondering that a lorry coming straight to me, and BOOM then staying in ICU for few weeks or months and memory lost. STUPID right? ish3 few days lying on the bed, non-stop crying. eat, watching TV, online, download music, hearing music... I refuse all! the usual thing i do, i don't want to do. My school holiday only for 2 weeks..so, moody all the time. My Hari Raya was out of mood. And my SPM was only few weeks away! wake up babe! i seek for my friends... they really help me.. thanks.
(xnak cerita panjang2 how they help me..kang boring and meleret plak) :)

hmm.. trying to b strong.. even till now.. almost 6 months.. i still can't. but i think i'm better than before.. macam mayat hidup sikit.. dulu..asyek nanges, tak nak itu tak nak itu.. 1st love heartbroken.. mmg payah kan? this is what we call experience.. still hoping and praying that one day, we'll meet again and unite as a married couple. haha! again, BERANGAN! looking at him, bhgia dengan orang yang tersayang, takpe lah.. go on with her.. saya tengok dia dari jauh je. SEMOGA AWAK BAHAGIA DENGAN DIA. setia? loyal? hati terkunci? entahlah sampai bile. sampai saya mampu kot.. bila tak mampu, tutup kamus je(mati).. haha sekarang saya cuba untuk happy..bila da masuk college ni.. a bit busier than before. so, baguslah. tak de la pk sangat. tapi, before tido, mesty ingat die.. everyday! for 6 months.. lame weyh! does he think bout me? does he feel the same way? ntahla..tak kot..  tapi kan, as my friend said, terlepas la kau nak cari boyfriend baru.. memang pun.. haha.. (pdhl dalam hati ni tak nak pun) orientation day, chinese and indians only. i'm the only malay.. ahah!

sometimes, i reread his letters, and tears run down my face. aww..so sweet..his words.. seriously. if i let others to read, they'll be saying so. semalam, ade terjumpa sms2 dia.. then, baca. argh! nanges lagi! hmm..tak pe la..let the time decide. ade jodoh, adelah kan? so, all i can do is to wait. to guys and gurls out there, if you r willing like me, go on. tapi jangan terhegeh2 plak. relax. if you guys can be friends. jadilah.. mane tau, unexpectedly ade second chance untuk hubungan korang? tapi, if you guys ade meet someone yang better, forget about the past and make it as a stepping stone to be a better person.

Now, i'm on the go to change.. thank god. hehe..